What am I doing in this world full of nonsense and lies?

Been super busy the past few days with all the packing and all the chalet. It was great fun. 4H IS fantastic and will forever be!! I'm going to miss 4H. All the fun we had during lessons. Making Mr Lim angry, making almost every teacher angry. Haha. Sigh... But in this life, there always have to be parting. It is just the beginning to a new life. Friends, 4H will always remain in my heart. Those 2 years we spent together was the greatest years of my school life so far. I wouldn't mind repeating it all over again, oh well, without the exams of course. LoL! I don't know when I'll be seeing all of you again but I can assure you, that chalet is not the last gathering that we, 4H"ians" gonna have!! =D Everyone, all the best for the future and till we meet again...

Chalet
Chalet started on 28 November. We reached in the afternoon around 3 and then we had bbq at 5.30 which was great. Haha. The boys were cooking and me, eating =p. The food was delicious, I think partly because I was starving. Some rent the bike overnight and went cycling. Some went to get alcoholic drinks. I chose a bacardi, orange flavour. We went to drink at around 10.30 I think. By then, Mervin had already gulped down a can of beer and he was a lil tipsy. But, he still go with the long island which contains 10% alcohol. And as you guessed it, he flipped. I mean, he was red all over and was high. When I had finished half the bottle of bacardi, I was hot all over too and my head was pounding and I wasn't feeling too good. Gave the rest to Vivian. I guess can't hold alcohol. Sigh.... I swear I wouldn't drink so much anymore. The headache was killing me. All of us went back to our rooms and Mervin slept. Well, we couldn't sleep as what usually happen in chalet. I managed to sleep for a few hours though. Second day, nothing much, ate breakfast went cycling and then I had to go home already.

Went for manicure, pedicure and nail art. It turns out nice. Reached home at about 10.30 PM and it was raining. Got my only pair of jeans wet. Packed everything already, that's why left only one jeans. So anyway, while I'm typing this, I'm already in Indo!! Don't know what to do but I know I want to do a lot of things. Going to Orthodontist to get my braces fix tomorrow. Kinda excited and also scared. Afraid it might not turn out nice. Oh well, I hope it does *cross fingers* ok then, shall end here, my stomach is calling for food.

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Yesterday was prom night. Nad, Maio and me were late, very late. Haha. We went to Hollywood Secrets to get my hair done and their make-up. We reached there late and the make-up took quite long. We finally reached at around 7.45 when the thing actually starts at 6.30. Haha. Everyone looked faboulous. They are all princes and princesses thet nigh. It was fun, taking photos, chatting, playing games. The emcee was, well, hillarious sometimes. It was great! Well, almots perfect. My stupid table nominate me for the crowning of Princess of GESS. Obviously I was eliminated in the first round because my clothing was nothing close to the theme- Fantasy. In the end, Fangyi and Kok Yong won the title, bringing home plagues. It was sooo cool!! I want that too.. Oh well, no potential. Haha. Woke up this morning with a very bad headache. No appetite to eat. Indo gang asked me to go to escape with them. Planned to go with Jessy's sister later but it turned out her sis went with them. So, didn't get to go. Oh well, it's ok. Just that this maybe our last gathering like this as a gang. Sigh.... Wouldn't it be great if there's only one single country in this world?? No separation...
Anyway, leaving Singapore on 30th.. Don't know whether it's a good thing or not. Part of me is happy but another part is sad. Happy because I get to be back in my own country, sad because I'm leaving friends behind. Don't know when I'll see them again. Well, all I can do is enjoy the chalet to the fullest.

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I've always wondered:"are there any kids out there who hate their parents?" My question is answered. It happens that I know someone who does. If I were her parents, I would have killed myself, seriously. Having a kid like that, it's no different than having a satan in the house. She actually wants her parents to suffer. Can you imagine, your mom going through that painful 9 months, your dad giving you all the love he can. I guess it's partly because she's the only child and probably her parents spoilt her. Supporting her like since the day she was born. If it weren't for them, she wouldn't have lived till this day. But, this is what they get from her. Anak durhaka I shall say. But I believe in retribution, karma. What goes round comes around. She'll just get her desert. Her kids may treat her the same way. Oh well, there's nothing more I can say. What parents want is the best for their kids. And yes sometimes we do rebel but deep down inside we know that they love us. We are their everything. How would you feel if you are a parent yourself and your kids treat you with no respect. Your heart will shatter. I just can't believe she could bring herself to do that. I guess all she wants is just attention. Acting rebelious, trying to be a bad girl so that she won't be left out? I don't know. Can't say. Seeking attention by doing things that hurt her parents. Tsk... something I despise a lot. I'm not saying that I never hurt my parents before well at least even if I did, it's not as bad as her. Yes, when I was young I was self-centered, selfish. I have to get what I want and if I don't, I'll get angry. But as I grow up, I realise that they don't always give in to me so as not to spoil me, so as not to make me become a more selfish person. They want the best for me. And I understand that as I grew up. I felt the love in my heart more than before. I love them with all my heart. They are my everything. I can never repay them for everything they had done for me. Not even a whole lifetime. But the least I could do is love them, respect them and not hurt them. Make them feel proud of me. I would never do things to hurt them, well at least I tried. But sometimes you don't mean to hurt them. But this friend of mine, she deliberately do things to defy them, to rebel, to seek attention, to hurt them. Heaven has eyes. I just hope someday she'll realise how important parents are. They are only persons who knows us best, love us the most. Not our boyfriend. Not anyone else in the world. They, create us, keep us alive. What more could you ask for from them? They have done everything they could. So please my dear friend, search your heart, do some self-reflection. Scolding your mom "b*tch", doesn't that make you one too? Like what they said "It takes one to know one." and since she's your mom, you have the same DNA. So that makes you a b*tch too. You've got enough attention, now, be a good girl. Bleah! Despise you with all my life, my guts, my heart. You deserve not a single respect girl.. oops, I forgot. I mean b*tch..

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Org2 indo.. tengkiu banget yah udah dateng hari ini. I hope you have fun walaupun makannanya ga banyak. Collin and Herman.. G-stringnya musti di pake yah.. huehehhe. kadonya pada decent2 smua sih.. cuma gw ama jessy punya yg ga decent. oh ada lg mugnya si vivi. haha. winston musti pake juga tuh. wakakka. yah.. this maybe our last gathering kaya begini.. taon depan dah pencar smua.. ='( I know some of you for a long time while others not so long. But no matter how long we know each other, all of you have left footprints on my heart that nothing and no one can ever erase. You'll forever live inside me. Love y'all! *muach*

[I'm going to miss all of you!! Thank you for the great friendship!!! =D]

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I'm sorry..
I'm sorry for doing this to you
I'm sorry for making you feel this way
I'm sorry for hurting you the way I did
I'm sorry for not being able to love you back the same way
I'm sorry for not being perfect
I'm sorry that you have to love me
I'm sorry I can't make you feel the way you want me to
I'm sorry........

One day...
All this while,
All this time,
I've been loving you.
I always believe that
One day, maybe one day,
My love will touch your heart.

More than once I've thought of giving up,
But, no matter how hard I try
I can't bring myslef to forget you.
All the while i believe,
that one day,
You'll realise my love for you is true...
One day, I hope one day, you will...

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I'm supposed to be asleep now.. Oh well, just don't feel like sleeping yet. But i'm sleepy.. ok fine.. I'm talking crap. I'm so bored, have nothing to do now. I shopped too much and spend too much money T-T. Must control myself. NONONO!! So many things to buy so little money. Sigh... a problem many people have. Why can't money just drop from the sky or something. Haha. Prom night is in 4 days. Or by this time- 3. Don't really know whether I should get another dress or just wear the one that I already had. Haven't get any accesories yet. Ugh!! Money money money. Makes the world goes round. I know it's kinda late, but I'm watching Harry Potter tomorrow!! Or today cause it's past midnight. Lame.. I know. this is what bored people do. Anyways.. shall end here. Force myslef to sleep. Ciao~

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Enya- Amarantine
You know when you gave your love away
It opened your heart, everything is new
And you know time will always find a way
To let your heart believe it’s true

You know love is everything you say
A whisper, a word, promises you give
You feel it in the heartbeat of the day
You know this is the way love is

Amarantine
Amarantine
Amarantine
Love is always love

You know love will sometimes make you cry
So let the tears go they will flow away
For you know love will always let you fly
How far a heart can fly away

Amarantine
Amarantine
Amarantine
Love is always love

You know when love’s shining in your eyes
It may be the stars falling from above
And you know love is with you when you rise
For night and day belong to love

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Well, i'm back with a brand new skin, a brand new post, and a brand new me! Geez.. Another year has gone. Time sure waits for no man. O level is over, and i'm going to start a new life in Australia next year!! Kinda excited and also sad. Going to miss all my friends here. And especially orang2 indo. We're going to be separated!! Tapi pasti nanti bakal ketemu lagi yah! =D It has been 6 great years here in Singapore. Well, not that I love the country or what. But all my friends made it possible for me to enjoy my days here. Boring school days, boring weekends, homeworks, studies and the list goes on. I would have rotted and died here if it weren't for them. I'm sooo going to miss all of you!! All my soulmates, my best friends, my babes..... Sigh.. Wonder how it'll be like over there in Melbourne.. But I know I'm going to love the seasons there. 4 SEASONS!!! Something that Singapore doesn't have. I want to write all the dedications.. but it will be too boring and long. Cause there're so many people I want to thank. Well, anyways.. just want to thank all of you for turning my dull, black and white life into rainbow! Love you all! =)

[Distance will not tear us apart, cause our friendships are still standing strong]

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