Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Jangan pernah membicarakan perasaan yang tidak pernah ada
Jangan pernah menyentuh hidup seseorang kalau hal itu akan menghancurkan hatinya.
Jangan pernah menatap matanya kalau semua yang kamulakukan hanya kebohongan
Hal paling kejam yang seseorang lakukan kepada orang lain adalah membiarkannya jatuh cinta, sementara kamu tidak berniat untuk menangkapnya...
Cinta bukan bagaimana menjadi pasangan yang "sempurna" bagi seseorang
Tapi bagaimana menemukan seseorangyang dapat membantumu menjadi dirimu sendiri
Dan karena itu kamu sempurna.
Translation:
Never say "I Love You" if you don't mean it
Never talk about the feeling that never exist
Never touch a person's life if it's gonna break her heart
Never look into her eyes if all you do is lie
The meanest thing a person can do to another is letting her fall in love but never plan to catch her....
Love is not about becoming "perfect" for him/her
But it's about finding someone that can help you to be yourself
And that is why you are perfect...
MeR stepped on your garbage
I'm leaving tomorrow!! Kinda excited. Can't wait for all the shopping and meeting up with my babe!! Vivian!!!!!!!! She's gonna take me around HK. LoL! Ok then. Ciao peeps~
MeR stepped on your garbage
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
It's past midnight, so it's another day.
Why didn't I notice you then?
Why didn't you catch my attention?
You were so perfect, you were so charming.
Why now and not then?
Why didn't God give me the chance?
Why didn't God create an "US"?
Why now, not then?
You took away oxygen with you when you left, cause it's so hard for me to breath.
MeR stepped on your garbage
Monday, December 19, 2005
What's this feeling you get when you like a person?? Oh! Like!! Or Love??!! Another question. What's the difference between like and love? Some people tell me both are the same, while some says they are different. But the thing is, they can't tell me the difference. "They're just different." Whaaahhh?? You're not helping... So, anyways, why do we go all googoogaagaa when we have this feeling. Like, when we see the person, we'll be happy. See, another happiness. (EeewWW!!! I just squashed a mosquito until the blood spurts out. OK that's out of the point) Back to topic, why do they say, we're blinded by love. When we like/love a person, we don't care about their weakness. All we see is their strong points, their "coolness" when they're walking, talking, eating or even standing!! Is it really true? Blinded by love... Hm.. Something I should start to observe. Why does it hurt when we see the person we like/love with another girl? Why does it hurt when we're rejected, when we mean "nothing more than a friend"? OUCH! Again they say, love hurts, always??? I don't think so. Love hurts when you're on your journey to find your other half, your soulmate, the one you're going to spend the rest of your life with. After that, does love still hurt? I think so, when quarrels happen, fight broke out. So is true that love ALWAYS hurt. How I wish that it doesn't hurt. It's just that, based on experience, when you're hurt by love, you're traumatised by it. You feel like you'll never want to love again, you'll never ever want to be close with another guy so as to prevent feelings to develop. But can you help it at all, when feeling grows inside you without your knowledge for a guy? A guy that is so mysterious that you thought you'll never have the chance to know him?? A guy that is so quiet?? I don't know, I really don't. I'm afraid to love but people tell me that love is beautiful. Haven't they experience the pain it causes? Haven't they realise the evil side of love? I want to love, I want to experience the wonder of it, the tenderness it brings, the warmth. But, will I dare to love again? I don't know. I'm waiting for someone to bring me out of this fear, to make me believe that "YES! Love hurts. But the wonder it brings is much better." Someone that I can trust and someone that says "I'm never going to let tears fall from your eyes, well, unless they are tears of joy =)" And that is what I wish for Christmas. I hope Santa hears my wish. Do you Mr Santa? I'm going to use the largest, loudest microphone to wish to you. I want to be taken out of this "fear of love" circle. I want to love like everybody does. I want to love without fearing of being hurt. And even if I am hurt, make me see the beauty of it and make me forget the pain!
MAKE ME BELIVE IN LOVE! ONCE AGAIN!!
MeR stepped on your garbage
Saw a total different side. Charms me even more. Sigh..... We're gonna be at two different ends of the world. Might not meet ever again and I hope it won't grow. Why do you have to go? Or should I ask, why do I have to go?? I don't know. Just love the different side. Were so mysterious which caught my attention. Makes people to wanna get a peek of your life. So, anyways, life goes on, nothing I can do about. 'Till fate brings us back. All the best! =D
Today was kinda the last outing for the indos ='( Mike's leaving for US tomorrow and Adhi for Singapore. And soon to leave, bagong and vince.t. Don't know when we'll meet again but when we do, I hope our friendships still stays the same yah!! Take care in US guys, turn into a hunkand chickmagnet yeah?! *winks* and bring back cowo bule for me!! Muahahahaha! Love y'all! *HUGGIESS!!!*
MeR stepped on your garbage
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Geez, 3 weeks into December. Time really flies. Some people gonna start their JC soon while I'll be stuck here in indo until God knows when. Well, at least I have something to look forward to. Going off to Hong Kong on 22nd. Sooo, I'm gonna be MIA for a week. Will be on a shopping spree!! WhEEeee!!! =D In a blink of an eye, and I'll be starting school in Melbourne. A whole new life, A whole new chapter, A whole new environment. Kinda looking forward to it, but on the other hand, not really. Don't know why. I really have no idea what else to write. You know how irritating it is when you can't remember what you want to write. When you weren't doing anything and not having your laptop in front of you and all the thoughts just flood your mind and all of a sudden, when you're in front of your laptop, everything disappears, your mind goes blank! Whooosh! Irritating..
[Santa, I have been good this year. Give me a surprise of a lifetime, give me the man of my dream. =)]
MeR stepped on your garbage
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Was lying on my bed last night, lots of things going through my mind like the niagara waterfall. The thoughts just keep coming and coming until I had to forcefully put a stop to it! Haha. Oh well, I was just thinking... What is like, what is love, what is a crush? What do they actually mean?? Is it some kind of obsession? Is it some kind of longing? Is it a need?
They seem to come in different forms: missing someone, trying to get a peek of their life, trying to BE in their circle of life. What is it about liking a person? What do you mean when you like a person? Do you like his/her appearance, characteristic or just that little bit of detail, say... maybe his/her eyebrow?? Sigh... so many questions, so little answer.
What's this feeling?? Whenever I'm near you I want time to stop! Right at that moment. Oh well, why think about something that's impossible. I know this won't happen as in you won't notice me. But, that's life. It's ugly and unfair. The cruelty of life. Whyyyy!!!!
All I want for Christmas is you..
MeR stepped on your garbage
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Whee!! Went to Dufan today with some of the indo people! Adhi, Devina, Felix(dev's bro) and me reached there much earlier than the host who is vincent!!! We reached there at around 1 and they reached at 3. WHAT!!??! Went to play roller coaster (halilintar-is that how you spell it?) first. It was fun and I got myself a headache! How wonderful. It was fun, the 180 degrees turn and all. After that, went to the Istabon (Istana Boneka) or the doll palace. They have this creepy dolls of different countries. Yes, they were creepy. It was a looonnnngg and booorriinng ride. But good to calm my heart down after that roller coaster. Michael T came and we played kora kora, the swinging ship. Was feeling ticklish and shouting my heart out. They(Vincent T, Jessy, Andy) finally came. We played alot of games, the stimulator, the roller coaster (again) and the niagara-gara which didn't get me wet!! Well, the final and most fun of all!!! The arung jeram!!! WOOHOOO!! First time play, not that wet but Andy and Dev was kinda soaked. Decided that my seat was not good. Went to change seat and played for the second time. ANd guess what!? God answers our prayers. We got damn wet!! Yes, all of us!! No matter where we're seating. It was sooooooooo fun! Can't play anymore cause the place is closed! YES!! DUFAN CLOSED AT 6!! SO EARLY!!! Got changed (only me and Mike brought things to change) while the rest was soaked to the skin. 8 orang yg pergi, yg punya supir only one. So you imagine we have to squeeze in one car all the way to Bakmie GM. Everyone was starving. Well, that's bout it, went home after that. Well, that's bout all for today!
Oh oh, my teeth, don't hurt that much anymore =D. Lost 2.5 kg but now gaining T-T.
MeR stepped on your garbage
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Just had my braces on and my teeth is so ngilu now. If you know what I mean. Kinda numb and like your teeth is being pushed forcefully. Won't be able to chew anything for a few days. Pathetic right!!?? Porridge everyday. Sigh... the price to pay for beauty. I won't do it for the second time. Luckily only the top row of my teeth. If not, I can die crying. LoL.
The orthodontist said that everything is perfect, the allignment of the lips, nose and chin, the jaw is in perfect place, all the teeth in perfect position, the wisdom tooth growing the correct way. It's just that one naughty tooth. If I had known earlier, don't wanna put. The thing is, he told me after I decide to put. No turning back. Gonna lose a lot of weight! Haha. Good thing though. =D
MeR stepped on your garbage
Friday, December 02, 2005
I know it's kinda late, super late, but I just started reading Harry Potter and they are great. At the third book now. Can't put it down. Geez! Why didn't I read it earlier. Oh well, better late than never. =D
So, nyways, the trip to orthodontist yesterday was ok. Still deciding whether to put or not because I have to tighten it often and will be going Melbourne next year. He actually wanted to refer me to the dentist there but he said they might not want cause mine is a small problem. They might ask me to re-do everything. After some thought, decide to go ahead. Coming back here every three months during the term break. As long as I can maintain it. *cross fingers* They took the shape of my teeth using this gum-look-a-like thingy. The metal was shoving up it's way to my gum and it was hurting. Luckily it didn't take long. And they asked me to bite on a candle! Tasted horrible. Will be putting on the braces on Monday, went back today for X-ray. I hope it doesn't hurt. No turning back now. Spent quite a lot just for all the the thingy so far. And going to spend more on Monday. Within one year and the braces will be off =D . Fast eh! Because mine's not so bad. Within 3 months it will be straighten already, just need to maintain it. Ok, enough bout orthodontist.
Missing my friends already. Don't know when I'll see them again. Mom was complaining, saying that I don't need to take my result on the same day as the others. But that's what I want!! I want to meet all my classmates on that day. She was saying that I should go later and then go straight to Melbourne. That's what I want to, but I want to take the results same day as the others!!! Sigh....
MeR stepped on your garbage