Monday, December 19, 2005
What's this feeling you get when you like a person?? Oh! Like!! Or Love??!! Another question. What's the difference between like and love? Some people tell me both are the same, while some says they are different. But the thing is, they can't tell me the difference. "They're just different." Whaaahhh?? You're not helping... So, anyways, why do we go all googoogaagaa when we have this feeling. Like, when we see the person, we'll be happy. See, another happiness. (EeewWW!!! I just squashed a mosquito until the blood spurts out. OK that's out of the point) Back to topic, why do they say, we're blinded by love. When we like/love a person, we don't care about their weakness. All we see is their strong points, their "coolness" when they're walking, talking, eating or even standing!! Is it really true? Blinded by love... Hm.. Something I should start to observe. Why does it hurt when we see the person we like/love with another girl? Why does it hurt when we're rejected, when we mean "nothing more than a friend"? OUCH! Again they say, love hurts, always??? I don't think so. Love hurts when you're on your journey to find your other half, your soulmate, the one you're going to spend the rest of your life with. After that, does love still hurt? I think so, when quarrels happen, fight broke out. So is true that love ALWAYS hurt. How I wish that it doesn't hurt. It's just that, based on experience, when you're hurt by love, you're traumatised by it. You feel like you'll never want to love again, you'll never ever want to be close with another guy so as to prevent feelings to develop. But can you help it at all, when feeling grows inside you without your knowledge for a guy? A guy that is so mysterious that you thought you'll never have the chance to know him?? A guy that is so quiet?? I don't know, I really don't. I'm afraid to love but people tell me that love is beautiful. Haven't they experience the pain it causes? Haven't they realise the evil side of love? I want to love, I want to experience the wonder of it, the tenderness it brings, the warmth. But, will I dare to love again? I don't know. I'm waiting for someone to bring me out of this fear, to make me believe that "YES! Love hurts. But the wonder it brings is much better." Someone that I can trust and someone that says "I'm never going to let tears fall from your eyes, well, unless they are tears of joy =)" And that is what I wish for Christmas. I hope Santa hears my wish. Do you Mr Santa? I'm going to use the largest, loudest microphone to wish to you. I want to be taken out of this "fear of love" circle. I want to love like everybody does. I want to love without fearing of being hurt. And even if I am hurt, make me see the beauty of it and make me forget the pain!
MAKE ME BELIVE IN LOVE! ONCE AGAIN!!
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