Tuesday, March 14, 2006
This post is dedicated to Erica, my best friend after 7 years and still counting on.
Erica!!! Besok udah mao brgkt yah.. You must take care of yourself yah. I'm going to miss you lots. Cuma bisa ketemu end of year =( I'm going to say all the cliche stuffs. Haha. You have been a best friend and a sister I never had, a younger one that is. LoL! Kita dah sering curhat2an, loe dengerin bullshits gw and vice versa. Never got bored of each other. Hari ini, gw maen ke rumah loe and had lots of fun. Sedihnya kali inget loe dah mo ke M'sia.. Tapi kita akan bertemu lagi yah!! Walaupun kita punya temen bae baru sendiri2 gitu.. Tetep aja loe temen bae gw yg takkan terlupakan. I'm glad kita pisahnya dengan laughter yah. Lompat2an.. Mamer pantat.. Do obscene poses.. Ah.. ancur deh pokoknya. Huahahaha. Ya udah deh, all the best yah di sono.. Jangan lupakan daku...
Love, kisses, hugs,
Meriana
MeR stepped on your garbage
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Well, I'll start off by asking you, my fellow readers, this question : Would you rather be Mr/Ms Popular or Mr/Ms Invisible (or as some people call it, "freak")?
I have my reasons for being either. First, if you're popular, everybody love you, everybody wants to be your friend, you're on top of the world, you seem to have everything that you want, etc, etc,etc.. Well, all the good stuffs come to you without you asking for it. Whereas if you're the "freak", you're isolated, nobody wants to know you, noone notices you, bang your shoulder and not apologise and again, etc, etc,etc.. All the bad stuffs... So I guess, everyone or maybe almost everyone will say you want to be Mr/Ms Popular.
Now let me explain the other point of view. So, let's say you're popular, you're smart and everything good. Everyone and I mean EVERYONE will have high expectations for you. You have to keep doing things that will allow you to keep the label "POPULAR" or "SMART". But are you really going to be happy doing all these things? Being up to the people's expectation but NOT YOURS? Imagine all the pressure put on you with all these expectations weighing down your shoulder. Do you really think POPULAR=HAPPY?
Say, if you're the invisible one, the different one, the freak, the girl/guy-who-always-spoils-the-fun, do you think people will expect many things from you? The answer is NO. They will expect nothing from you. As a result, you live a carefree life with no pressure, nothing weighing you down. Well, there's the bad side of course.. You become... how should I put it... ANTI-SOCIAL.
Alrighty.. there goes my piece of mind.. Now think deeply of which one would you rather be?
So enough of that... You know how I say I'm excited and can't wait to go to Melbourne?? Well, I'm here to confess.. Some part of me is, yes, excited.. but there's this part of me that's afraid of the new challenges lying ahead, the new life and all. Having to adapt again when I'm already comfortable where I am.. I just don't know which part is stronger.. the excitement, or the fear.. CHANGES, something that I can't run away from. I just have to learn to adapt and cope with all the changing stuffs.. Hope I can do it well.
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