What am I doing in this world full of nonsense and lies?

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This is what my sweet friends did! They woke up damn early to do this on the pavement outside College Square! Damn the rain! It was smudge before I could read it. Didn't see it when I went to school. Was too engrossed in something. I came home and saw it! I wanted to cry!! Chandra woke up at 5 AM!! Erisca woke up at 6.30. She don't usually wake up that early on a Monday morning mind you! I was soo happy!!

Thank you ci vince, ko beta and tio for the birthday cake!! Kirain beneran bakal di ceplokin telor. ternyata tidak.. huehhehehe.. maap kalo surprisenya jadi terganggu.. maap2.. terima kasih bangeet!! =D

Well, anyways! THANX ALL! AND I'M FINALLY 18!!!

So anyways.. that was in the morning and the night before.. I went to get a new phone today accompanied by Alice and Erisca. At first, I wanted to eat Nando's but Alice said she knows a nice jap restaurant juga downstairs. So I said, ok let's eat there. It turns out... WHat was downstairs was not the jap rest but a surprise party!!!! I was shocked, in a good way that is. THey're a sweet bunch of friends.. =)

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Ok. This is gonna sound disgusting. I'm typing with my sticky fingers cause I'm too lazy to wash hand. So random. Whatever. Anyway, let's get straight to the point of this entry. First, as usual, I'm going to throw a question at you, my readers (if there's any). Can a guy and a girl be best friend? Ok ok.. Don't just throw me with answers but reasons!!

I personally feel.. It all depends on the guy and the girl. You know.. With normal guys, it's kind of hard to be really good friend cause somehow.. the guy will end up liking you and stuffs like that. It kinda get awkward after he confesses his feelings. It's like you've been really good friends for so long and all of a sudden this happens. And somehow the friendship won't be the same anymore. There goes one good friendship. On the other hand, with not-so-normal (you guys know what I mean and no offence k.) I feel that we can be really good friends. For this.. I don't know the reason. I guess it's just human nature. How feeling grows after a long time of friendship. Sigh... life is so complicated. Human's nature seems to be the cause of every complication, every problem, just everything. It's kinda cruel yeah.... That's just life..

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I don't know why I get irritated easily these days. I get easily provoked. It seems like there's no use walking around with a sign around my neck saying "DO NOT PROVOKE! DANGEROUS!".

I have been fascinated with quite a few things lately. Like, how small the world is, how an apology work like wonders, how a person's feelings for another can change so fast. I don't know... little things fascinates me. Things that we take for granted. I don't know what else to write.

I'm damn pissed off with a particular someone. Whatever he says sounds like he's damn *. So.. I need time off. Don't come near me. Don't talk to me. 'Cause you'll just make me hate you more.

I HATE THE HUNGER PANGS I'M GETTING EVERY NIGHT. AND I'M DAMN PHAT *.

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When your good friend tells you your weak point, will you really think about it or will you just brush it off? What do you feel when they tell you that? Do you find it irritating?
I will think about it and if I'm really like what they say, I'll change. But if I think he/she is just being too sensitive, I'll brush it off. When they tell me that, I'll feel like "Woah, you actually paid attention to me." On the other hand, I also feel, "Ugh! That hurts you know!" About whether it is irritating or not. I don't know. That depends on the situation. I hate mood spoiler by the way. I LOATHE them! It's like you're having so much fun and all of a sudden they come and tell you all the things that can just make you from mood 10 to -10. And you'll like just f* off will you? Aren't you tired of paying too much attention to people? Telling them everything that they don't know or even they don't need to know?? Have you ever thought of how the other person will feel after hearing all that? All I can say is that, mind your own business. Unless you're really the very best friend of that person.

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Our group name (2 drama classes join together)

The pro dancer, the band and a lot of students' "bands"

Had big noise yesterday. I bet you guys are wondering "Huh?? Big Noise?? What the hell is that??" To summarise it, it's BIG NOISE!! Haha. Ok, i'm not making sense. It is a time when all the february intake students come together and play all different kind of instruments. Obviously we have people to teach and direct us. These instruments originated from brazil and it's just fun! We can actually play music together. 400-500 people!! And yeah we have some dancings and stuffs. You can just imagine how loud the noise is. It's so loud that the patrol helicopter came. All I can say is that it's fun!

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I was just looking through some of the old photos and I realise... without myself knowing, I ACTUALLY MISS 4H'05 VERY MUCH!! I teared while looking through all the photos eg. painting class day, 120th anniversary and of course, grad night. sigh... I wish that we could go back to old times.. Yes, I have more freedom in the school here, yes it's fun, yes there's no rules but the class is not as bonded. We have many many many classes and it's just impossible for someone and another to have all the same classes.. Sigh..... I WANT 4H!! I WANT GESS!! ='( I miss all the times we spent together, studying in the class together, laughing at jokes, laughing at Mr Lim. I miss all those times... If only I could turn back time.. I miss trying to keep awake during lessons. Here, you can fall asleep and they won't even care.. I miss everything about 4H. 4H once, 4H forever..

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