Thursday, August 31, 2006
Questions for you people, have you ever loved someone 100% and I really mean 100%? People who are in love right now will probably say yes. But, think again.. Search your heart real deep, I believe you can find someone that still mean something to you. It may be just memories but still, they mean something to you before. I can't forget about my ex that easily. I mean consciouly, I feel that I have forgotten about him. But I know deep down inside me, he still holds a special place in my heart. It doesn't have to be your ex, it can be a special friend. A friend that means more than a friend. You may be in a relationship right now, but there can be a person (of the opposite sex that is) that holds maybe 1% of your heart. It may not be a lot, but still, there is someone else in your heart. Will you feel guilty? Will you deny your own feelings? I will feel guilty for sure, but to erase that person completely from my heart, I don't know if I'll do that. I know some of you will say "it's unfair to your boyfriend and bla bla bla" But if you were in my position, I believe you will do the same thing. You just don't want to lose this special friend. You do love your partner very much, but you just don't want to erase this more-than-friend of yours from your life completely. It's a dilemma indeed... [Inspired by Pepi]
This makes me think... Have you actually given 100% of yourself before? Not just to your partner, but even to your friends? A question to ponder about.
I'm facing a dilemma right now, not the kind mentioned above. I don't know what should I do, I'm afraid if I make the wrong move I'll lose *... I'm afraid of saying the wrong thing. It seems like it's not the right time but can I wait any longer? Can I conceal this feeling? Why can't you at least give me something positive, something for me to cling my hope on, something for me to be happy about. Currently all I get are negatives, all I get from you are things that crush my dream, sweep away my hope.. I can only do one thing right now, try my best and not get my hopes too high. I don't want to lose you, I don't want to lose a friend because of my feeling.. I don't.......
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